18th November, 11.40 pm.
i was playing L4D on my computer. so engrossed.
all of a sudden, my second brother came into the room and said "galen, stop plaing, mama just passed away".

wow. I was so in shock that i was just left speechless and blank. I sat in silence forhalf an hour with my two brothers, waiting for my dad to pick us up to go to the hospital.
The solemn moment continued in the car, while i tried to recollect my thoughts and relieve the memories that i had with my grandmother.

when we arrived at the ward, everyone was gathered silent and knowing. We all looked at each other in understanding silence. sigh.

when i went in and took my first look at her, my beloved grandmother, i broke down.
i cried, and cried. i cried.

My aunty told me "tell mama to rest in peace galen, you know she doted on you the most.."
my maid even said, " galen, mama sayang you the most.."

those words made my eyes erupt in tears like a volcano would. shit.
what sucked the most? She was supposed to come back home tomorrow. and, i was supposed to go and see her and tell her how much i loved her tomorrow. This was after a long time as i just finished my O levels and went wild playing. sigh.

mama i love you, rest in peace kay. i'll always remember your cooking, smile and nagging..

Galen, Zhi Zhi.